What’s Next Lord?

Thanks to those who have been following my blog since January and have seen my faith journey with God unfold over the last few months.  While I asked God to be Lord of my life in 2016, I’ve grown to know him more and more through each season of my life. These last 3 months I’ve truly learned to trust God with every piece of who I am and he has shown up mightily to show himself as a provider.  

As most of you know I sold my home exactly 2 week ago  during this tumultuous time in the world. God is good.  These last two weeks have been the first time in a long while I’ve been able to tap into society and feel the impact of what is going on.  All of the uncertainty has been a challenge and our leaders are making some tough decisions on our behalf. I pray to God that he gives them wisdom as so many lives will be impacted.  Through it all, I’m trusting God with my life. He is my rock, giving me sanity and peace right now. I pray you feel the same. I hold onto Psalm 91:2 that says, “I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress, my God in whom I will trust”.  It truly settles my spirit and I hope this pandemic will come to and end in the near future as we all do.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve been using this time to think, pray and meditate on my life.  I’ve been asking questions of myself such as “why am I here?” and “what would God have me to do?”.  These questions really hit home as I was job searching a week ago. In the middle of searching I just stopped.  I simply cannot see myself in the same career field I’ve known the last 18 years. I do like business, but the focus on bottom line sales growth the next half of my career gives me no satisfaction or motivation.  For almost three years I was a sales analyst for a large organization through Sept of 2019. I did the job well, but I needed a new challenge. I thought that the challenge I needed was management, but quickly learned that was not it as I took another role in a new company that did not go well.  I first thought it was the company, but I now believe it’s simply time for a change.  

As I have shared on past blogs, my son graduates high school in a couple of months.  Seeing that he is my only child, my life will look a lot different when he heads to college in the fall.  It’s the first time since I can remember that I’ll have an ample amount of time to focus on myself. I hardly know what that looks like as I had my son when I was a senior in college.  I went from studying to starting my career and raising a child. This will all be very new for me. At first thought I was frightened. I was scared to be alone and bored to death without my son’s activities taking up my time.  As I prayed, I realized I’m simply heading into a new season of life. I can celebrate that I did my job in raising my child and preparing him for the next phase of his life and now I can focus on what’s next for me. What is next for me?  

As I said earlier, I believe it’s time for a change.  It’s been the year of change for me anyway, so why not keep the change coming? lol .  I believe I’d like to be a counselor, advisor, mediator or something along that line. I also believe I’d like to mentor and coach young girls in youth sports one day.  I’d really like to make an impact on people and have an impact on young lives. Seeing that my son has a couple of basketball scholarship offers, I don’t have to focus on paying for his schooling right now, which is a true gift from God!  I know this will likely mean I have to go back to school and earn my masters degree. How this will be paid for, I don’t know. I’m not thrilled about school either as i graduated from undergrad 18 years ago, but if I truly want to do this, it will require a sacrifice on my part to get there. Even if I stay in my current line of work for 2-4 years, I’d know I have a light at the end of the tunnel that doesn’t only focus on generating more sales each year.  I have appreciated business the last 18 years as it allowed me to provide for my son, but I can do something different now. The thought of it creates excitement in me! So many possibilites!

Yes, I know we’re still in the middle of a pandemic and no one knows what the future holds, but I’m hopeful.  I can focus on today and still be hopeful in planning for my future in hopes God will heal our land in due time.

This will be a process for me, but I’m trusting God to lead me and open doors for me if it is his will for my life.  Please pray for me as I continue my journey of faith with the Lord. He hasn’t failed me yet!

I pray that the Lord will bless and keep you and your family during this time.  I pray for your safety. I pray the Lord will be your provider and comforter as well.  I pray you have peace in your mind, body, soul and spirit. I pray you would spend this time speaking with God and allowing him to dwell with you as well.  “Here I am. I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him and he with me”, Revelation 3:20.

May the God of peace be with you,

Felicia